Page 98 - A Soldiers Exposition

FINAL THOUGHTS

A couple of years ago, my psychiatrist, Dr. L. suggested I get involved in some small way. “Volunteer, do
something.” He admonished.

But the stigma of the loss of my Executive Skills and my concern that I might make mistakes that could
harm a Veteran caused me to opt-out of any plans to volunteer at the VA Medical Center.

I was also concerned that spending too much time around the Veterans might possibly worsen my PTSD
related nightmares and flashbacks.

Veterans like to talk with other Veterans. I was concerned that too much talk would have major
repercussions. I decided to do nothing; I was wrong – my loss – their loss.

Several months back I began to ask myself how I could consider myself relevant.

The idea of writing this exposition began to come together.

These writings were for my family, friends, and medical staff. That was the intent.

However, they became therapeutic for me.

I can report: No change in the frequency, realism or impact of my nightmares and flashbacks can be
associated with this project.

Regardless of what I do, they control my life.